Sunday, May 16, 2010

Rainy and Boring

I feel like I have done absolutely nothing today. I hate rain, it makes me want to sleep. I have to make myself a schedule to go by throughout the summer so that I just don't waste away each and every day, kind of like I did today. I'm thinking of including exercise time, Bible reading time, GRE studying time, swim time (once I get the pool up and ready), cleaning time, and then just goof off time. Again though, I'm just not motivated to do any of it. I've also realized that in this so called schedule that I need to be making that I need to include a list of like 10 words that I don't know well and make sure that I learn their definition and in ways that they can be used.

I just saw a bird fly off with a worm in its mouth. Sometimes I wish that I could fly, it could be fun. Okay, not very long this time, but I need to try and get a few things done. 'Til next time...

Saturday, May 15, 2010


Saturdays are absolutely days to love. They are a time to rest and relax and just spend time with those that you love and care about. I love Saturdays, however, they really are not great days for me to actually get a lot of things done. For instance, today I woke up and went and got Angel Food with my one and only and then we came back to the house. I put the food away and he cleaned the kitchen and then started lunch (the kitchen needs to be cleaned again). After lunch I got to spend time with my bestest (yes, I know bestest is not a word, but it is the best way to explain her) friend in the whole world. It is nice to have a friend where you do not have to worry about what you say. I sometimes have a condition called Foot in Mouth Syndrome and with her I don't have to worry about my syndrome. HaHa. 

On a kind of but not really related subject, actually it really is not related at all. Anyway. Last night I was working in my GRE study guide and low and behold I found out that I suck at analogies. That book has also made me realize that the somewhat large vocabulary that I thought I have, I really do not, which is upsetting. I have decided that I'm going to take my time through this study guide and do the practice tests and then possibly go through a different study guide. Hopefully, after all of this my scores on the practice tests will go up and I will feel like they are sufficient enough to go spend $150 on a test. 

In other news I love my new puppy named Luci. She is adorable, except she has a whining problem, but in trying to be fair what puppy does not whine a lot. Luci has a sister named Lola that I am watching for my bestest friend until her and her fiance move out of their apartment. Luci and Lola are so cute together, I think we need to find a photographer that takes pictures of animals and take Lola and Luci to get pictures made. HaHa, wouldn't that be fun?

Thursday, May 13, 2010


So here is part 2 of my ramblings. 

I've only been awake for a not even an hour because of the stupid storm last night. It's so ridiculous, I'm 25 years old and still hate thunderstorms. It's not the rain or the lightning that bother me, but the thunder how pathetic, I know. So here I am not even having been awake for an hour trying to decide what to make of my day and I have no want to do anything. I need to be studying for the GRE. I need to be cleaning and doing laundry. I need to exercising so I don't look like a fat blob anymore. I need to be doing all sorts of stuff, but I have no want or no motivation to do any of it. It's so weird, but I think that without school I don't have the motivation to do anything, hopefully though I'll find the motivation. Oh by the way, allergies SUCK. Just had a 5 minute sneezing fit. 

Ever wonder what it would be like to be an animal. As I'm sitting here writing this I'm watching my dog named Chill lying on the couch sleeping and a squirrel outside my front door foraging for food. They both it seem like lying around doing nothing is okay, I wish I could feel that way. I really love watching squirrels because even with a brain as small as theirs they are so smart. It's amazing the way nature tells them to do things. I know weird ramblings. Thinking that way about squirrels and lots of other animals comes from the fact that I took Comparative Psychology a couple semesters ago which is supposed to be using animal behavior to predict human behavior but instead we just learned biology about animals, so as useless as I think that class was now I have a deeper understanding of animals. 

I'm really glad that I entitled this blog ramblings because it means that I can sit here and talk about absolutely nothing without any consequences. 

So apparently there is an alumni meeting coming up at my high school to talk about ways to save the school. I graduated from a school that you can associate with being an "intercity" school and they have had the lowest test scores for the last decade. Yes, including when I was there, hard to believe, huh? :) But anyway, at this meeting my fellow alumnus (anyone from the first graduating class in 1959 to the graduating class of 2010) are going to be working with the principal to set up motivational assemblies and mentor time for next year using the successful graduates as the speakers and mentors. I think that this is a good idea, living in a city teenagers get mixed up about what is really important in their lives and so sometimes they need help getting back on the right track. The problem I have is I don't think that any of us that have graduated within the last decade have any business being up there talking about success because none of us have had the time to become successful, I mean I'm just now getting my life on the right track. Another problem I have is everyone thinking that the low test scores are just because the students don't want to learn. I'm sorry, I think a lot of the blame lies on the teachers and the rest of the faculty. I went there and a lot of the teachers that were there when I was there are still there today and they don't want to be. I didn't get the education I deserve and it wasn't because I didn't want to learn it's because no one gave it to me. Yes, I graduated as one of the top of my class with a 3.97 gpa but that's only because the classes were a joke. I didn't have to study, hell, I didn't even have to try. Not even in my AP classes, now that is really sad. So while trying to motivate the kids is a good idea, it isn't going to solve the problem.

Well, now that you're bored to tears I'll stop rambling so maybe I can get motivated to get something done. Until the next time...

I wish....

I wish...

Ever wonder how to finish this statement. Ever wonder if the way you finish this statement will come true. Here are a few ways I'd finish this statement:

1. That I had started this blog before I had graduated.
2. That I didn't have to take the GRE.
3. That I could automatically go into the Counseling Psych program
4. That I didn't miss going to school :(
5. That I knew what I wanted to do with my life.

See what I mean, all these answers just lead to more questions and statements. This statement is never going to lead to something that I understand. It's so strange, one day I think that I know what I want to do with my life and the next I'm not so sure. For instance, for the last year I wanted to go into the forensic psychology program that UCO is trying to institute, but now I'm going to try to get into the Counseling program. I just think that I an do more good with counseling and all I've ever wanted to do with my life is something good for someone, the world, etc.

As for the GRE thing, it is the hardest, stupid test to study for. How do prepare for something that could have have any 200 of up to like 5,000 different vocabulary words on it, I mean really. Not to mention that I suck at math and the GRE is like the SAT, just math and verbal, oh and the analytical writing section, that is mostly just there to suck up time. UCO only expects you to get like a 900 on the stupid thing and I'm praying and hoping that I can do that.

As for wishing that I had started this blog before I had graduated, I really wish that I had because then I could have let out some frustration and anxiety. Graduating from college was one of the scariest things I have ever done, probably coming second to getting married with graduating from college running a close 3rd. It's something that you dream about and think about so much for such a long time that when it finally comes it's actually a little bittersweet. I mean on one hand, you're completely ecstatic that the day has finally come, but on the other you're wondering what you're going to do without having to go to lectures and write papers and take tests. I mean put it this way I graduated last Friday, May 7th and I'm already going nuts. I have to find something to do with my time, probably going to spend a lot of it studying for the GRE, yuck!

I'm looking for at least a part-time job so that I have time to work on the wonderful GRE stuff. Hopefully, having my B.A. will impress people and I'll find something at least halfway decent.

Okay, so I guess that is enough for today's ramblings, maybe tomorrow I'll have something more interesting to ramble about. :)